The truth is, since I stepped into my new role, I haven’t written a single word. (Well, that is, other than work emails and business recaps and community plans.) I did all that work last year clearing out the channel, scrubbing off the rust and corrosion, wrote 100 days in a row and then some…and … Continue reading
Small Life, Slow Life, The Luxury of Grief.
Do you remember when you had the luxury of grief? You were allowed the space to be fully devastated. You could call into work, *cough cough* into the phone, tell your boss that no, you weren’t feeling better. You could use up your whole sick time you’d accrued in the fetal position, tangled in sheets, … Continue reading
Small Life, Slow Life: The Lapse.
It’s hard to believe that almost two months have slipped by. When I transferred stores in February, I told people, “I’m not going to make any decisions for thirty days. I’ll observe, and listen a lot, but no big decisions for thirty days.” In the one therapy session I’ve had in the last eight weeks, … Continue reading
Small Life, Slow Life: I got promoted!
These photos are of me on the phone with my regional manager as she was making me the offer; the timing happened as I was about to leave for the day, so my whole team was around to watch and congratulate me! I had waited for that day for a long time, so I totally … Continue reading
Small Life, Slow Life: Change is here.
I got the call today. My hands shook, my voice caught, and the tears flowed. A treasured time in my life is ending, and something new will begin. I discovered recently that I am not so good at endings, nor beginnings. (That makes up a lot of life, so that’s probably not good.) I get … Continue reading
Small Life, Slow Life: Afraid to lose.
I remember looking at my computer screen, the letter from Berkeley announcing my acceptance, glaring at me in black and white. We are pleased to inform you. “Aren’t you happy?!” Other Mom said, shaking my shoulders. “Get excited!” Another memory: Eighth grade graduation, crying my eyes out, thinking of saying goodbye to a temporary boyfriend, … Continue reading
Small Life, Slow Life: Change is coming.
Someone important to me is not going to be in my life much anymore. It’s not a bad thing; it’s actually a thing that’s wonderful for him, but I’m pretty sad all the same. He has been such a wonderfully supportive constant in my life for the last two years. He has played the role … Continue reading
Small Life, Slow Life: I’ll have time for myself…when she’s in college?
It happened! I had my interview today for an upcoming role within lululemon. Fingers crossed, but I’m hopeful for a new challenge soon. That said, work has been so harmonious lately, and I’m worried about losing that. And missing my current team, whom I have worked so hard to bond with. 😔 I get frustrated … Continue reading
Small Life, Slow Life: Currently.
(These. Photos. Am I right?! I saw them on Tumblr and felt a jolt of recognition, and of course, they were taken in Fukushima.) I’ve been in a dreamy haze, writing a lot on my own. I told C today that as I start to write more, by myself on a real computer, and not … Continue reading
Small Life, Slow Life: The time will pass anyway.
Last night was the first night in 134 days that I did not come here to write. Instead, C put V to bed, and though I opened the WordPress window and even hovered my cursor over the subject line, I eventually navigated away and researched and wrote for The Book (intentionally capitalized, because that’s how … Continue reading