Someone important to me is not going to be in my life much anymore. It’s not a bad thing; it’s actually a thing that’s wonderful for him, but I’m pretty sad all the same. He has been such a wonderfully supportive constant in my life for the last two years. He has played the role of trusted advisor, sparring partner, biggest fan, and caring friend. I can’t even picture how my life would be without him.
But, this is how things go. For holding on comes easily, we do not need to learn it.
I feel like the last eight years of my life have gone like this:
Sense change coming.
Panic about change.
Change happens.
Resist change with all my might.
Feel nostalgic for past.
Try to go backwards/escape into something familiar.
Fail.
Accept change.
Appreciate change.
Embrace change.
Enjoy life.
Peace.
Feel so grateful.
Hope things stay the same.
Sense change coming.
small life, slow life 