I see the discarded pregnancy tests in the trash as I toss in a tampon wrapper. These unlikely plastic adversaries sit beside each other: one a symbol of hope, the other of failure. Immediately, I think, Ugh, I’ll take the trash out so I don’t have to look at those. Then, correcting myself, I think, … Continue reading
Tagged with motherhood …
A small & slow holiday season.
We’re at the very end of December, arguably my favorite time of year. The special padding of time between Christmas and New Year’s always feels like a bonus week that moves extra slow. I really savor it. I spent most of December working & baking. I really thought this holiday season would be different because … Continue reading
Small Life, Slow Life: It took a fire.
You might have heard that fires are raging through Southern California again. While they aren’t close to us this time, the wind blew all of the smoke and ash here, and, long story short, both C’s gym and my store have been closed for two days due to poor air quality. And it’s not like … Continue reading
Small Life, Slow Life: Experiences over things.
(Don’t worry, this isn’t turning into a Disneyland blog.) I had the best time with V at Disneyland last week, and ever since I’ve been talking to all of my coworkers about buying an annual pass. “But the cost,” I moaned. “And even if you get the cheaper pass, parking is $25 per trip. So … Continue reading
Small Life, Slow Life: A Special Mom & Daughter Disney Date!
I was gone on a work trip last week, and V had a really hard time with me being away. On Sunday night, I said to C, “I think I’ll take her to Disneyland tomorrow.” “Really?” he said. “By yourself? Isn’t it super expensive?” “She’s only free a little while longer.” As luck would have … Continue reading
Small Life, Slow Life: I’ll have time for myself…when she’s in college?
It happened! I had my interview today for an upcoming role within lululemon. Fingers crossed, but I’m hopeful for a new challenge soon. That said, work has been so harmonious lately, and I’m worried about losing that. And missing my current team, whom I have worked so hard to bond with. 😔 I get frustrated … Continue reading
Small Life, Slow Life: Currently.
(These. Photos. Am I right?! I saw them on Tumblr and felt a jolt of recognition, and of course, they were taken in Fukushima.) I’ve been in a dreamy haze, writing a lot on my own. I told C today that as I start to write more, by myself on a real computer, and not … Continue reading
Small Life, Slow Life: How I became happier. {So much worked in 2018.}
We rolled in today slowly, gently, in comfy clothes. We spent a long time at the park with V’s cousins, had lunch, ran around the mall, and mostly stayed at home on the couch, snuggling and having snacks. When that got boring, we asked Alexa to play upbeat 80’s music and had a dance party. … Continue reading
Small Life, Slow Life: Cumulonimbus.
I walked to my car with a coworker, Cam. When we got to the fifth floor of the parking structure (one of my favorite places in the world), he said, “Whoa, look at those clouds!” They were bubbly, frothy pink clouds foaming up over the mountain ridges to the east. “Cumulonimbus,” I said automatically. “Why … Continue reading
Small Life, Slow Life: Not tonight, Josephine.
Not tonight, Josephine I was reading Little Fires Everywhere by Celeste Ng a few weeks ago (my favorite book this year), and there’s a part where Izzy, an angry teenage character, shuts herself in her room and listens to Tori Amos over and over, the darkness of it opening her up, allowing her to confront … Continue reading