It’s 9:38pm and I just want my kid to to go bed. I wanted to blog here, like actually tell a long story. I wanted to have a snack and watch Ozark with my husband. I wanted to relax. Instead, she’s crawling all over me and I know she’s gonna be up until 10. Just … Continue reading
Today at the park, a twelve or thirteen year-old-ish girl sits on the ground and leans back onto the chest of her mom, who is sitting against a brick wall. Together, they watch a younger boy play. Facial resemblance tells me he is the younger brother. The girl and her mom smile at him, and … Continue reading
I hate how I’m aging. I never cared about the smile lines or dozens of grays before I had a baby. But what changed when I had a baby was my skin. I got melasma pretty early on in my pregnancy and it just got worse and worse. All the books and my doctor said … Continue reading
“I think you’re a very good mama,” my husband says, touching the top of my head as he brushes by me to get something in another room. He says it in passing. I don’t respond in time. What he doesn’t know: At that moment, I am feeling like the biggest fattest failure of a mama. … Continue reading
Add me on Goodreads here! One of the things I missed during the early, sleep-deprived days of being a new mom was READING! I was an English major and have always been a voracious reader. My most favorite days in school were when those little Scholastic flyer-booklets would be passed out. Nothing smelled better to … Continue reading
Every time I tell a mom I’m interacting with that I have a two year-old and that it’s been difficult lately, she says, “Hang in there but please enjoy it.” Some moms tell me they just sent their youngest babies to college; others have surly teenagers who are driving them up a wall. So I’ve … Continue reading
The sun is hot. The sun is yellow. The yellow sun is over the house. “It is hot out here in the sun.” “It is not hot here under the house.” –Go Dog Go, by PD Eastman (It was my favorite book, and now it is V’s as well.) I love summer. It’s my favorite … Continue reading
Sometimes I think that I want another baby, but then I’m like, Am I crazy? Still pretty raw over yesterday, I started the day puffy-eyed and went to work. After work, C and I made “the switch,” which is me taking Violet and him going to work. We see each other four about four minutes … Continue reading
Today we said goodbye to Sophie, our ten year-old mini schnauzer. It was a really difficult decision my mom and I made together after considering the amount Sophie was suffering, and the amount she’s suffered her whole life. Being in the presence of someone/something who dies isn’t something I’ve done a lot in my life, … Continue reading
The way a place smells can really take me back. I look back sometimes and honestly can’t remember what it feels like to be a teenager. Or to be so heartbroken in my mid-twenties. Today I walked into the gym that I spent years in. It’s had two different owners since I’ve been there and … Continue reading
small life, slow life 