I am tired in my very bones today. My body aches, my eyes are forming bleary tears every time I yawn. But even with that, while at the park and feeling achy, slow, I still notice you. And when I take the time to do it, time completely stops; it’s like I’m freezing you into … Continue reading
There are these moments that flow like total perfection. I’m sitting with V on the couch. She’s watching Sesame Street. She is constantly sitting as close to me as possible, sometimes even on me. I am reading the new Murakami, Killing Commendatore. V wraps an arm around mine, plays with the seam on my pants. … Continue reading
V and I went to see my dad today, and although he hasn’t asked me this in a long time, at some point in our conversation (and trying to stop V from tearing all the guitars off the walls), he said, “So, are you writing?” For so long, the answer has been, “No, but I … Continue reading
There is a certain way you call me. “Mommy.” It’s not really calling me; it’s not loud. You say it softly, repeating it, but not asking for anything. You say it when you sit in my lap, you say it when I come home. You say it when we’re doing nothing together. Sometimes you’ll put … Continue reading
Today I met up with John, an old friend I’ve known for half of my life, but haven’t seen in about nine years. He had yet to meet V and we hadn’t caught up in a long time. But like any good friendship, we picked up right where we left off and soon I was … Continue reading
I already mentioned that I’m a big podcast girl. Lately, having gone through every Oprah podcast available, I started listening to the Magic Lessons podcast with Elizabeth Gilbert, author of Big Magic (and, of course, Eat, Pray, Love). They are a lot about creativity and living as an artist, and a lot about life, … Continue reading
Today, my friend Elizabeth visited and we just played, went to Target, and had lunch. I don’t know how she did it, but she captured the real essence of V and our relationship. It was such a treat to see these photos. V loves to laugh right now and I’ll do almost anything to get … Continue reading
Over a year ago, my friend Marianne (you know her from the How to Make a Vision Board post) suggested something kind of radical to the rest of our group. Rather than a gratitude journal, she wanted to start a gratitude text chain. Just the four of us, every single night, as the day ended. … Continue reading
There are two moments in my day that I have the joy of dropping my inner dialogue, forgetting the very long to-do list ahead of me, and fully reveling in the present moment. They are when I exit my car, and when I go to my car at the end of the day. Where my … Continue reading
Do you believe in redemption? Do you? My favorite stories are always the ones where the hero (or the villain) changes his mind at the last minute. Has the big revelation. Calls off the plan to detonate. Saves the hostages, frees his captive. Cries pretty, and sees the light. Redemption. You can redeem yourself if … Continue reading
small life, slow life 