There were years that I weighed my spinach. Looking at every gram and sticking it into an app to determine my calorie content. I am not kidding about this. I weighed spinach, carrots, and tomatoes. If the calorie count got too high, I took some out. There was a year that the only thing I … Continue reading
What could it look like to just soften? What could it be like to not watch myself in the mirror, to not look for skin pudge-ing out over my bra, or hanging over the waistband? How could life be without saying to myself, Well, before I had a baby, I looked like ________ / I weighed … Continue reading
The things in life that make me the most tired are being in the places (read: among the people) where I don’t feel fully free. What does “fully free” mean? It means that I can speak my mind, even if my thoughts are small or irritated or petty, and not worry about being loved any … Continue reading
But you can’t get to any of these truths by sitting in a field smiling beatifically, avoiding your anger and damage and grief. Your anger and damage and grief are the way to the truth. We don’t have much truth to express unless we have gone into those rooms and closets and woods and abysses … Continue reading
I can’t believe it’s already been a week since I went to Purpose & Practice. What is P&P? Well, it’s a personal development retreat/yoga + meditation experience/purpose-definining, persona-changing, uplifting weekend of connection. Put on by lululemon, including airfare, food, and accommodations. For free. I’ve been working for lululemon for six years and I am still … Continue reading
The words “Rise up” are following me recently. First, Hamilton, which I fell in love with and saw in May. Then, at Purpose & Practice, a yoga/meditation retreat for lululemon employees that I attended last weekend. On the final day, we talked about rising up and living our purpose, and they played an acoustic song … Continue reading
You know. You do – you really do. You don’t need to go looking, or write it down in your journal, or spend an hour in meditation, or go for a run on the beach. You already know. You know where you’re feeling pinched, suffocated, resentful, overloaded, burned out, unappreciated, struggling, anxious. You know where … Continue reading
small life, slow life 